ANGELS AMONG US

PART 3

PG

Jason sat straight up on the coach, looking all around the penthouse. He rubbed his hands over his face. It was just a dream, it had to be. He couldn't believe that he had a dream. Maybe it was the bottle of tequila he drunk before he went to sleep. Emily. 'She looked wonderful, but I guess being in heaven has that affect on a person. I wonder why a year later I dreamed of her. And she seemed to know what was going on in my life now. No more tequila before bed.' He could have sworn he heard Emily laughing. Jason stood up to go make some coffee, shaking his head. Man, he wasn't as young as he use to be.

"Grandmother, how do you think that went?"

"I believe that you enjoyed it a bit too much." Lila said chuckling. "Jason doesn't need to believe that he dreamed or saw you, he just needs to realize that his family needs to come first and the rest be damned." She said shaking her fist.

"Go Grandmother, tell him how it needs to be." Emily stood beside of her grandmother laughing. Sometimes the old lady would just shock the pants off of you. "So tonight or sooner if she takes a nap, I am going to see Liz. I have missed her so much. I am going to have a heart to heart with her. She is artistic so she will be much more open to me."

"I think that Jason needs to have another visit. This time one where he is not in such stupor."

Elizabeth had just finished putting the boys to bed. She walked quietly through the house checking all the doors and windows to make sure they were locked. She loved her boys and she was so thankful that Jake was back home safe and sound, but there was a pain in her being that would never go away. Jason and her would never be together no matter what. No contact, not even by phone. Drastic, yes, but they both knew if they had contact they would give into their love and amazing connection. The boys were suppose to be safe with no contact and maybe they will be but what about having the best dad around. Sure Lucky is good to the boys and he loves them in his own way but not the way Jason did. She wasn't sure how she was going to deal with seeing him and just walking away without even a Hi or anything, but she would deal with it when it happened. She just wished that she could get rid of the nagging feeling that no matter what they did to have no contact, no matter how much the fought against the connection, that providence would have it's way with them.

She checked the door one more time and climbed the stairs. She snuggled down in her bed, glad for the weight of the covers. Something to keep her from running to to the phone to call him. As hard as she tried she was unable to keep the tears from falling. She cried herself into a deep sleep.

"Elizabeth. Liz, Liz. Wake up sleepyhead. Come on Liz, way past time for some girl talk."
"Em, is that you? Wait, I'm just dreaming. Em is gone. It's been a year since I talked to her last. This is just a dream."

"Liz, are you seriously going to ignore your best friend and pass me off as a dream are you?"

"Em, Em, is that really you?"

"Yes, silly, it's really me. I really love what you have done with this place. So you want to tell me why you and Jase are still apart?"

"Gee, Em, you don't beat around the bush, do you? If you know were are still apart than you know why we aren't together."

"Okay, so I know why you two are still apart. I thought if you said it out loud you would see how silly it sounded."

"Em, what part of my baby being kidnapped is silly? I would love for you to tell me. We can't be together because it's too dangerous. The Russians took Jake because of Jason, so obviously it is safer to stay away from him." Elizabeth was mad that Em would even suggest it after Jake had been taken.

"But if they already know that you and your boys are important to Jason, then what is the point of staying away? Wouldn't it be safer to be where there are guards around you 24/7? Where there is a state of the art security system, where you would sleeping with the most protective guy on earth? Tell me how that is safer?" Em was standing in front of Elizabeth with her hands on her hips. She knew that Elizabeth would be open minded to seeing her or dreaming her but she also knew that she was going to be in a protective mother mode.

"Oh, Em, don't you think that is what I want. To come home everyday to the most wonderful man on earth, to make love to him every night. To raise my boys with him and to have a little girl some day to name after you, I want all of that but more but…"

"But what? Your scared? Your afraid he won't stay for good, that maybe he would leave like he has in the past? That maybe he doesn't want to be domesticated?"

"Damn it, Emily, what do you want me to say? That I'm afraid? That I can't make sense of this crazy mess I call my life? Do you think I want to be alone for the rest of my life? I don't. But I will be because I will never be able to love someone like I love Jason, Ever!! I just want..I just want my family..together." Elizabeth's body was shaking with sobs.

Emily started smoothing Elizabeth's hair down. "Oh, Liz, I didn't want to get you this upset, but I knew it was the only way."

"The only way ..to.. what?" Elizabeth said though the sobs.

"For you to see that you and Jason are safer together than apart."