This is what happens when I can't sleep
I have been thinking about starting to write again but all my fan fics are on my other computer. So this is what I came up with instead
I will warn you now, it is not a happy story. I am honestly never sure about anything I write, so I welcome all comments and criticism. I really want to improve my writing so I would love to hear how I can make it better.
I hope you enjoy it 
One Last Goodbye
Motorcycle boots crunched the fallen leaves as they made their way to a small headstone. The sun was shining and a gentle breeze was blowing but the leather jacket glad man who had entered the cemetery could feel none of it. For him the world was cloudy and black and silent. He knelt down in front of the grave and was about to speak when he noticed a small envelope right in front of him.
My Baby Boy it said.
The envelope was unsealed and he gently picked it up and removed the contents of it, a piece of paper and a toy motorcycle.
Opening the letter before him he began to read,
To My Baby Boy,
The day you were born I looked in your eyes and I saw your father’s. Though me and him never got our timing right I always believed I the best parts of him we wrapped up in you. You were the light of my life. I would rock you to sleep each night and always thank God for giving me such a precious gift. I would hold you in my arms and I would feel as free as the wind. You were a wonderful baby.
When you were 9 months old you said your first word and I swear it was motorcycle. You probably heard the roar of your dad’s bike the few times he came over. That rumbling sound always put me at ease too. You were about year old when you first started to walk. Crawling was not an option to you. You would fall down but you never cried and you always picked yourself up. One day you walked across the living room and to me and you looked up at me pride shining in your blue eyes, a satisfied smirk on your face. I was so proud of you and I thanked God again that he let me be your mommy. You quickly started following your brother every place he went and you did everything he did without a hint of fear or doubt. My two little men I used to think, the only men I will ever need. Cameron would chatter on about almost everything and you would just listen and nod and then give him a hug. He was so lucky to have you as a little brother. I was so lucky to have you as a son.
The day Cam shared his first toy motorcycle with you I saw your eyes light up. You played with it for hours and never let it go even when you went to sleep. Cameron tried to take it back the next day but you just glared at him and said “mine”. Cam knew he would never get that motorcycle back but that was okay because he was starting to ride a real bike. He was going to teach how to ride for your birthday you know. And we had the perfect gift for you, a red miniature motorcycle. But a few days before that you heard a noise outside and decided it was you responsibility to check it out. You were always looking out for me and Cam. I don’t know what you heard but you ran into the street and then you were gone. I will always remember that moment in slow motion finding you lying in the road hands in little fists even as you were unconscious. You were mommy’s little hero I just wish mommy could have been yours. You needed me to bring you back to life just like you always did for me after a long day of work, but you never woke up not once . The ambulance came and me and Cam were getting in to ride with you when Cam remembered your toy motorcycle. He ran back in the house to get it for you. He said you would want it when you woke up. But you never did and that was all my fault. I was too caught up in all my mistakes that I didn’t even realize you went outside until it was too late. I will never forgive myself for that.
I am writing you this letter to let you know that me and Cameron are going someplace new, but that we love you and miss you every day and we will never ever forget you. I didn’t want to leave without giving you your motorcycle back or telling you one last goodbye. See you later baby boy!
Love, Mommy and Cam
Jason put the letter down and crumbled all the way to the ground, silent tears flooded his cheeks. Jake was gone Elizabeth and Cam were now gone too and he didn’t think that they were ever coming back. No matter how much he wronged his son, no matter how much he hurt Elizabeth and his family, he never expected them to all leave forever.
He carefully folded the letter and put it back inside the envelope. Was all the pain and sacrifice worth it? Why did he always hurt the people he loved most why did he betray his only son? He should have watched out for them and he should have been their hero. But no, he was too much of a coward and his son was the one who stepped up and paid the price. “Oh Jake,” he sobbed. Suddenly angry and bitter, Jason hopped on his bike and rode as fast as he could, as far as he could. He wished he knew about them leaving he would have tried to stop them or at least stop her from saying goodbye. But it was too late. Jason now understood that his dream and his family were truly gone and Elizabeth’s letter was one last goodbye not just to Jake, but in a way to him as well. He stopped suddenly and peered up at the flickering stars. “No,” he said to himself, “this can’t be it, this can’t be goodbye.” But it was, even though he vowed to the sky that he would never say it back. Instead he whispered “See you later Elizabeth, Jake and Cam,” and with that he rode off into the coming night.



