Living Is Easy
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A/N: this was originally something for Liason Haven but didn't work out, sorry didn't read the rules correctly. This takes place a year or so in the future, it has nothing to do with the current GH other than characters and a few references. Anyhoo it just came to me and here it is. Tear jerk alert!
Summertime and the living is easy, yeah right. That is such a load of bullshit and she would like to track down who ever wrote that damned song and shoot their ass.
She can't remember the last time anything was easy for her. When she looked back over the last decade of her life it actually seemed like a big blur zipping by. She has a hard time even contemplating that she will be thirty years old soon much less all the stuff that has happened in that time period.
Danger, death, and destruction the three d's of her miserable life. No one person should have to experience the unholy crap that she has but the weird thing was she couldn't figure out how she survived.
Danger seemed to follow her since she was fifteen years old from the rape right up to the day he walked away from her that last time.
Death well that seemed to be her best friend at times and worst enemy. Someone was always faking his or her death in this stupid town, or having it faked by someone else. She had even done it herself to save two young men so important in her life at the time. Those people all managed to pop back up at the most inopportune times usually just as your life was getting back on track to send you careening out of control once again. That had certainly happened to her and in spades this time.
Destruction well that was almost a way of life for her also, Love, marriage, happiness of any sort was always right there just out of her reach, taunting her almost. Here I am come and get me. How many times had she reached for that golden ring and had it in her grasp only to have it jerked away. Now her one last thing had been destroyed, her last chance at having it all.
It was only a matter of time before they finally caught up with her and they did. They had triple teamed her this time.
She had let him walk away that final time, wanting so badly to call to him to beg and plead with him not to leave them, to stay, just stay, She needed him, she wanted him but as always where their love was concerned they remained mute when it mattered the most, except that one time, where he had finally admitted that he loved her. She had been so cowardly and said so many things that she didn't mean.
She had let the father of her son go, he had demanded that she do it and she did. She renewed her contact with Lucky; she again made promises to love forever. They both knew in their hearts it was more friendship than real deep passionate love, but she moved forward just as he wanted her too, even though it wasn't a real marriage. Lucky was a good father to her sons, he needed to be needed and the three of them had needed him so badly.
If only for once in her life it could have stayed that way, but no, it didn't and now here she was not alone but it really didn't matter anymore. She still could have her golden haired boy, she could still have Lucky but the other two pieces of her heart were gone. She was not going to let those two things deter her this time. She had to go and this was the only way by forcing the issue.
She feels a tug on her hand and looks down, the little boy standing there with her wanting her attention and she gave it smiling and pointing. She has him stand in front of her and lets him feel the breeze on his face. She wanted him to see what she had always seen up here the stars so close, the wind on his face but it really was a road to nowhere.
She hears the boots shuffling in back of her and hears him say her name softly, "Elizabeth."
She turns her head and gives him a real smile, "hello Jason how are you?"
"I'm ok, how about you?"
"I've had better days, better years." She moves and he sees the little boy standing there and he sucks in his breath harshly.
She whispers to him, "look Jake we have a visitor." The bright, twinkling, blue eyes that meet his are mirror like except his are happy.
She looks at him, "come on over closer. Jake this is your father."
Jason falls back, "no Elizabeth, why did you tell him that?"
"Because he needs to know that, what did you think I was going to say-my more than friend? You are his father act like it for god's sake. You are going to be raising him and it won't take a rocket scientist to figure it out once you are together. Deal with it Jason, stop being a damned coward like I was."
The little boy just stares at him with a look of slight confusion and a question on his lips, "you're my father?" he looks up at his mother and she nods. His eyes swing back to the man in front of him. "Oh."
"I still don't think this is a good idea Elizabeth."
"I no longer care what you think is a good idea Jason it is going to happen."
She takes Jake's hand and pushes him to Jason, "darling your father will take good care of you, he loves you as much as I do, but I can't stay with you now. You remember we talked about how I have to go away. I will always love you," she lays her hand on his heart, "I will be right here forever. Take your father's hand now Jake."
He reaches his little hand up and clutches on to the big man trying to keep his tears in check. "I'm scared Mommy. I want Cam."
She feels the tears run down her face, " I want him too my darling, I want him too. That's why I have to go because I can't have him or you anymore. Take him Jason, take care of him, love him like you loved me at one time-with all your heart."
He turns and waves at Cody and Spinelli he whispers to the little boy, "just go to the truck with them. Give your Mom a hug and kiss, ok you'll see her soon."
She leans in to get that one last smell of the young boy, she feels his hands on her trying to pull himself to her and she lets him for just a few more seconds, "I love you Jakie don't forget that, be good for your father."
Spinelli takes him and looks at her one last time, just sitting there, then nods at her as they walk away. Jake is watching her over his shoulder for as long as he can.
"You shouldn't have told him that Jason it's not like you to lie like that. He's probably not going to see me again and you know that full well. All I want is for you to live up to your end of the bargain. Stay in the business, get out, I don't care; just always take care of him."
"I know I have no right to dictate your life like this but I'm doing it anyway. I'm not saying don't have anyone in you life but that someone can never be to him what I was. I know I'm being a bitch right to the very end but you can never have Sam, Carly or any other woman in his life as a mother-a nanny I can see. Monica will be a big help and Maxie might even grow up one day and help, she and Spinelli can be like older siblings to him. Lucky will not bother you or interfere in any way, but you two should try to work something out to let him see Jake once he is settled."
"I've told them all already what is going to happen, they didn't like it but I don't care, I promised and I will do it. If I can't have you Elizabeth I don't want any other woman. Why do you insist on leaving Elizabeth? You can stay here he needs you to stay with him. At least let us come with you or to visit."
"I can't Jason I love him more than life it's self but like you I'm giving him up to save him. I'm not good for him anymore, my hurt is too deep now and it can't be relieved, he needs someone who will love him unconditionally and now I can no longer do that. It's better to cut it off right now before it eats me alive and I start to look at him differently."
"This wasn't your fault, you're in no way responsible for what happened. You're the victim here not a person who caused this. Elizabeth I still love you, I know in your heart you are aware of that, we can try…"
"Don't you get it Jason I can't 'try' anymore, trying never works. I needed more than trying I needed a long-term commitment of love, loyalty -never coming in second. As much as we love each other I never got that from you, but I know that Jake will get that because he is a part of you. There's always going to be a part of you that will pull back from me for whatever reason but Jake will never have that. You will be, as I've always said, an amazing father. You have to let the Jason Quartermaine side of you come out again. I know it's still there just like you do, the Quartermaines need Jake to unite you all again in some form. I just can't be a part of it."
"My heart will forever be here in Port Charles because Jake is here, you are here and this is where I'm leaving Cam. I know I thanked your Mom for allowing him to be there next to Emily, but tell her again how much I appreciate it. I love you Jason, always have, always will but I'm leaving now my flight is due in two hours. Summer in Italy I can't wait, thanks for setting the villa up for me and having the car waiting. I have my computer and Spinelli has me all hooked up so I'll be watching for as long as possible. Don't disappoint me Jason always love him."
"I will Elizabeth I have always loved him just as I've always loved you and as I loved Cam, he was a wonderful little boy and a big brother better than any other. He saved Jake's life that day I'm sorry that your beautiful son couldn't be saved. The car that hit you and Cam would have killed Jake also but Cam pushed him out of the way. He was/is a hero and I will tell Jake about him every day."
"You go first Jason I hate for him to have to look at me this way, he gets so upset when he sees me like this. I'll send you some postcards and any paintings I get done so you can give them to him. I sent The Wind to your penthouse, so you can explain it to him."
He walks over one last time and bends and takes her face in his hands and presses his lips to hers and feels them trembling. He smoothes her hair back running his fingers through it one last time. "Don't give up Elizabeth we both need you, please don't give up."
"I'll try Jason the doctors are pretty closed mouthed about my chances but Patrick says he will keep in touch with them and you'll what I know," she brings her arms up one last time and hugs him to her, "go before I start crying again."
He turns slowly away wiping his face of the silent tears running there so Jake won't see them. He doesn't look back until he gets to the truck parked next to her vehicle and as he steps up he looks back at the woman who still holds his heart. She's even paler, almost translucent, than usual but she looks so small sitting in the wheelchair, her legs covered even in the summer. He gives a tremulous smile saying, "First, last, always."
She lifts her hand one last time and waves calling out "see you later." She sits there as they drive slowly away, she knows Jake will be crying and Jason will be holding him close comforting him like he used to do her and that is what makes this all worthwhile.
Her nurse comes, "are you ready Ms. Webber?"
"Yes I'm ready to see the light in Italy, you know someone told me once the light there was different, so you and I are going to see for ourselves. Yes indeedy, summertime and the living IS easy. Let's go Francis will be waiting for us in Venice."
The End
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A/N: this was originally something for Liason Haven but didn't work out, sorry didn't read the rules correctly. This takes place a year or so in the future, it has nothing to do with the current GH other than characters and a few references. Anyhoo it just came to me and here it is. Tear jerk alert!
Summertime and the living is easy, yeah right. That is such a load of bullshit and she would like to track down who ever wrote that damned song and shoot their ass.
She can't remember the last time anything was easy for her. When she looked back over the last decade of her life it actually seemed like a big blur zipping by. She has a hard time even contemplating that she will be thirty years old soon much less all the stuff that has happened in that time period.
Danger, death, and destruction the three d's of her miserable life. No one person should have to experience the unholy crap that she has but the weird thing was she couldn't figure out how she survived.
Danger seemed to follow her since she was fifteen years old from the rape right up to the day he walked away from her that last time.
Death well that seemed to be her best friend at times and worst enemy. Someone was always faking his or her death in this stupid town, or having it faked by someone else. She had even done it herself to save two young men so important in her life at the time. Those people all managed to pop back up at the most inopportune times usually just as your life was getting back on track to send you careening out of control once again. That had certainly happened to her and in spades this time.
Destruction well that was almost a way of life for her also, Love, marriage, happiness of any sort was always right there just out of her reach, taunting her almost. Here I am come and get me. How many times had she reached for that golden ring and had it in her grasp only to have it jerked away. Now her one last thing had been destroyed, her last chance at having it all.
It was only a matter of time before they finally caught up with her and they did. They had triple teamed her this time.
She had let him walk away that final time, wanting so badly to call to him to beg and plead with him not to leave them, to stay, just stay, She needed him, she wanted him but as always where their love was concerned they remained mute when it mattered the most, except that one time, where he had finally admitted that he loved her. She had been so cowardly and said so many things that she didn't mean.
She had let the father of her son go, he had demanded that she do it and she did. She renewed her contact with Lucky; she again made promises to love forever. They both knew in their hearts it was more friendship than real deep passionate love, but she moved forward just as he wanted her too, even though it wasn't a real marriage. Lucky was a good father to her sons, he needed to be needed and the three of them had needed him so badly.
If only for once in her life it could have stayed that way, but no, it didn't and now here she was not alone but it really didn't matter anymore. She still could have her golden haired boy, she could still have Lucky but the other two pieces of her heart were gone. She was not going to let those two things deter her this time. She had to go and this was the only way by forcing the issue.
She feels a tug on her hand and looks down, the little boy standing there with her wanting her attention and she gave it smiling and pointing. She has him stand in front of her and lets him feel the breeze on his face. She wanted him to see what she had always seen up here the stars so close, the wind on his face but it really was a road to nowhere.
She hears the boots shuffling in back of her and hears him say her name softly, "Elizabeth."
She turns her head and gives him a real smile, "hello Jason how are you?"
"I'm ok, how about you?"
"I've had better days, better years." She moves and he sees the little boy standing there and he sucks in his breath harshly.
She whispers to him, "look Jake we have a visitor." The bright, twinkling, blue eyes that meet his are mirror like except his are happy.
She looks at him, "come on over closer. Jake this is your father."
Jason falls back, "no Elizabeth, why did you tell him that?"
"Because he needs to know that, what did you think I was going to say-my more than friend? You are his father act like it for god's sake. You are going to be raising him and it won't take a rocket scientist to figure it out once you are together. Deal with it Jason, stop being a damned coward like I was."
The little boy just stares at him with a look of slight confusion and a question on his lips, "you're my father?" he looks up at his mother and she nods. His eyes swing back to the man in front of him. "Oh."
"I still don't think this is a good idea Elizabeth."
"I no longer care what you think is a good idea Jason it is going to happen."
She takes Jake's hand and pushes him to Jason, "darling your father will take good care of you, he loves you as much as I do, but I can't stay with you now. You remember we talked about how I have to go away. I will always love you," she lays her hand on his heart, "I will be right here forever. Take your father's hand now Jake."
He reaches his little hand up and clutches on to the big man trying to keep his tears in check. "I'm scared Mommy. I want Cam."
She feels the tears run down her face, " I want him too my darling, I want him too. That's why I have to go because I can't have him or you anymore. Take him Jason, take care of him, love him like you loved me at one time-with all your heart."
He turns and waves at Cody and Spinelli he whispers to the little boy, "just go to the truck with them. Give your Mom a hug and kiss, ok you'll see her soon."
She leans in to get that one last smell of the young boy, she feels his hands on her trying to pull himself to her and she lets him for just a few more seconds, "I love you Jakie don't forget that, be good for your father."
Spinelli takes him and looks at her one last time, just sitting there, then nods at her as they walk away. Jake is watching her over his shoulder for as long as he can.
"You shouldn't have told him that Jason it's not like you to lie like that. He's probably not going to see me again and you know that full well. All I want is for you to live up to your end of the bargain. Stay in the business, get out, I don't care; just always take care of him."
"I know I have no right to dictate your life like this but I'm doing it anyway. I'm not saying don't have anyone in you life but that someone can never be to him what I was. I know I'm being a bitch right to the very end but you can never have Sam, Carly or any other woman in his life as a mother-a nanny I can see. Monica will be a big help and Maxie might even grow up one day and help, she and Spinelli can be like older siblings to him. Lucky will not bother you or interfere in any way, but you two should try to work something out to let him see Jake once he is settled."
"I've told them all already what is going to happen, they didn't like it but I don't care, I promised and I will do it. If I can't have you Elizabeth I don't want any other woman. Why do you insist on leaving Elizabeth? You can stay here he needs you to stay with him. At least let us come with you or to visit."
"I can't Jason I love him more than life it's self but like you I'm giving him up to save him. I'm not good for him anymore, my hurt is too deep now and it can't be relieved, he needs someone who will love him unconditionally and now I can no longer do that. It's better to cut it off right now before it eats me alive and I start to look at him differently."
"This wasn't your fault, you're in no way responsible for what happened. You're the victim here not a person who caused this. Elizabeth I still love you, I know in your heart you are aware of that, we can try…"
"Don't you get it Jason I can't 'try' anymore, trying never works. I needed more than trying I needed a long-term commitment of love, loyalty -never coming in second. As much as we love each other I never got that from you, but I know that Jake will get that because he is a part of you. There's always going to be a part of you that will pull back from me for whatever reason but Jake will never have that. You will be, as I've always said, an amazing father. You have to let the Jason Quartermaine side of you come out again. I know it's still there just like you do, the Quartermaines need Jake to unite you all again in some form. I just can't be a part of it."
"My heart will forever be here in Port Charles because Jake is here, you are here and this is where I'm leaving Cam. I know I thanked your Mom for allowing him to be there next to Emily, but tell her again how much I appreciate it. I love you Jason, always have, always will but I'm leaving now my flight is due in two hours. Summer in Italy I can't wait, thanks for setting the villa up for me and having the car waiting. I have my computer and Spinelli has me all hooked up so I'll be watching for as long as possible. Don't disappoint me Jason always love him."
"I will Elizabeth I have always loved him just as I've always loved you and as I loved Cam, he was a wonderful little boy and a big brother better than any other. He saved Jake's life that day I'm sorry that your beautiful son couldn't be saved. The car that hit you and Cam would have killed Jake also but Cam pushed him out of the way. He was/is a hero and I will tell Jake about him every day."
"You go first Jason I hate for him to have to look at me this way, he gets so upset when he sees me like this. I'll send you some postcards and any paintings I get done so you can give them to him. I sent The Wind to your penthouse, so you can explain it to him."
He walks over one last time and bends and takes her face in his hands and presses his lips to hers and feels them trembling. He smoothes her hair back running his fingers through it one last time. "Don't give up Elizabeth we both need you, please don't give up."
"I'll try Jason the doctors are pretty closed mouthed about my chances but Patrick says he will keep in touch with them and you'll what I know," she brings her arms up one last time and hugs him to her, "go before I start crying again."
He turns slowly away wiping his face of the silent tears running there so Jake won't see them. He doesn't look back until he gets to the truck parked next to her vehicle and as he steps up he looks back at the woman who still holds his heart. She's even paler, almost translucent, than usual but she looks so small sitting in the wheelchair, her legs covered even in the summer. He gives a tremulous smile saying, "First, last, always."
She lifts her hand one last time and waves calling out "see you later." She sits there as they drive slowly away, she knows Jake will be crying and Jason will be holding him close comforting him like he used to do her and that is what makes this all worthwhile.
Her nurse comes, "are you ready Ms. Webber?"
"Yes I'm ready to see the light in Italy, you know someone told me once the light there was different, so you and I are going to see for ourselves. Yes indeedy, summertime and the living IS easy. Let's go Francis will be waiting for us in Venice."
The End
